Random Ramblings…
Today I feel sad and I don’t know why, I almost cried at three different times. Actually cried big fat tears while reading a silly book.
Maybe bipolar is a better term, closer to what I’ve been going through these past few weeks: one moment I’m at the top of the world, the next I feel as though I can’t sink any lower.
I think I am losing my mind, slowly and steadily.
Seriously considering going to a shrink even though I loathe the very idea of them. I mean, it kinda feels like prostituting yourself. Not your body but your mind. Think about it, you’re paying a stranger to dissect your thoughts and emotions.
Shouldn’t the person you allow into your psyche be someone you trust?
They dig into your brain with questions and cryptic sentences leaving you raw and vulnerable, to top it off they charge you an exorbitant amount of money for that torture.
I don’t believe they’re worth it.
But I might have to eat my words, having the only person I can actually talk to living far away. And a phone call just doesn’t cut it because I can’t even put into words what’s wrong with me.
So here I am, pouring my sorrows onto paper while working at a dead end job feeling the world crumbling around me with nothing except my pen to hold on to.
But then, my pen and I go way back, we’ve been through some hard times and we have always survived, emerged stronger and more resilient.
